Wow Mom! A d50!

yes, the big man has done it, Santa brought me a Nikon D50 digital SLR camera with a compass in the stock (it really doesnt have a compass, nor a stock, but I have been watching too much christmas story). It was a total surprise, so much that I started trembling when I caught sight of the Nikon Logo on the box for my lense. Anyway, im super excited about getting to know and use this camera.

I took a few pictures today, just playing around with some of the manual settings.
this is the box:
my dad when we were playing cards:

and my mom drinking some tea:



I hope everyone had such an exciting christmas like I did.

aye, it be nearin christmas day

I was having a conversation with my parents when I realized how un-excited I was about christmas this year. I couldnt figure out why until my mother reminded me to tell her what I wanted to get from her, and thats when the answer came to me... Im not excited because Im not looking forward to getting some sort of amazing gift, because I couldnt think of anything to ask for. Its terrible to think about but, ive basically forgotten what I should be celebrating right now. I hope that maybe next year I will be exstatic right now, on the dawn of Christmas Eve, to celebrate the Messiah's Birthday.


Merry Christmas, ye fellow bloggers.

a little bit about anger

A little incident that occured tonight reminded me of really how silly we can be when we are angry. How can a freindly board game turn into yelling at each other and leaving? It's hard to think of how we can ever acheive world peace if we get angry at each other over a stupid game. I have decided the main problem is our competitive human nature, because in all honesty, i really enjoy making people mad and winning on board games and any other thing. I don't know if it is because I know its just a game, or what, but for some reason I think its hilarious when things get heated up over a few points in a pop cranium game that doesn't matter five minutes later. Hopefully peace will come to the world soon, but before that can happen, I think we all need to learn that winning really isn't everything.

the nurturing ceases

its strange to think about where i will be a year from now.

a good freind will be doing what i have not the courage to do, taking a journey into a sort of "middle earth heaven" and living for a year working in the absolute beauty and tranquility of Reykjavik, Iceland. For some time now i have wanted to just leave all of this behind and start a life somewhere on the south island of New Zealand. I havnt made any plans to do this because God has not shown me any sign that He wants me their, but im actually not sure if He has shown me a sign to be anywhere. my life in highschool and of care from my parents is ending in the next few months and i really cant wait to get out, but I just do not know where to go. my heart pulls me in both directions. it pulls me to a life in college and then a good job and family from there, but also to New Zealand and a life of simplicity and bliss.


I hope He will show me what to do soon.